I always thought that just getting pregnant would make my life perfect. I never realized how much worrying went along with pregnancy.
I have another blood test tomorrow to make sure my HCG levels are rising. I was fine the first couple of days, but this weekend I started worrying that something may have happened between Thursday and Monday. I am anxious to get the results of the blood work tomorrow.
If everything is good tomorrow, I imagine I will be fine for a couple of days again & then I will start worrying until the first ultrasound when we hopefully see the heartbeat.
I've waited so long for this to happen and now that it is here I am so very scared to be happy about it because I'm worried about all the bad things that can happen. It is still so early.
We are slowly starting to tell people IVF seems to have worked. Since everyone knows we were doing IVF, they know that we should know the results by now. So it's not something we can hide until we are ready to tell. I'm afraid of jinxing ourselves by telling too many people. But we've been so open about the IVF process that people want to know.
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I know what you mean. I was always waiting for the other shoe t drop...so to speak. The worry never stopped, until she was born. Then, you have a whole new set of worries. After she was norn, I worried non stop about SIDS. Waiting for that shoe again. It's hard to accept the miracle, and she's 17 months old now! I still worry constantly!! It's our job to worry, as Mom. Congrats on your pregnancy!!
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